I am so excited to finally announce that we’re adopting a little girl from China! It’s something that Andrew & I have been talking about since our very first date back in 2003. Not kidding. It was definitely a “make-it or break-it” question for me. Lucky for him, he wanted to adopt internationally, too!
After we were married, we continued to talk about how, one day (after having three kiddos), we’d adopt our fourth child from China. The only problem with that plan was that it was OUR plan. Isn’t that how it so often goes? While we are off making our own plans, God gently nudges and redirects us in the way that He wants us to go. Well, God clearly had a different plan for our family, too, a much better one!
After three years of struggling with unexplainable secondary infertility while trying for baby #3, we felt God leading us back towards adoption. We’ve been back and forth for the past year trying to decide between domestic infant adoption (mainly because I really wanted to do the infant thing again) and China adoption. We’ve been close to adopting domestically twice (literally had the paperwork ready to turn in), but both times God stopped us and has led us back to China. Clearly, I’m not a very good listener. A talking donkey or burning bush would have been more helpful.
I shouldn’t be surprised. God first placed China adoption on my heart when I was just a teenager. It all started with a dream. For several nights in a row when I was about 17 years old, I had the same dream (a dream that I still have from time to time). In the dream, I’m playfully chasing after this little girl in a field. She couldn’t be more than 2 or 3 years old with beautiful hair — hair as black as night — in pigtails. She is giggling and I only get a quick glimpse of her sweet face before the dream ends. All I know is that in this dream the little girl, clearly from China, is my daughter.
Like I said, it’s truly where our hearts have been from the beginning. Why have I tried to force our square peg (our family) into a round hole (domestic adoption)? Perhaps we’ll adopt domestically in the future, but for now, we are excited that we’ve finally said, “YES” to God’s plan for our family. It’s a scary step, definitely a leap of faith, but an exciting one!
At this time we’ve been approved by our adoption agency, CCAI, and are working with our social worker to help complete all of the paperwork that is needed to get our dossier filed in China.
Stay tuned for more updates and some exciting ways that you can get involved to help bring baby girl Kossack home!